a Sleepy Sunday

sigh im doing pretty bad at life so far......

its just SO FUCKING HARD to change yourself......seriously..."改變自己".....is like a task i've been working on since ages ago.......i doubt if this will be a lifelong task for me......

am i ever gonna be satisfied about myself? nah....prolly wont.....until the day i get married =]

sooo looking forward to it, yet im not ready....financially, mentally & physically ofcourse...(im "physically" single..lol.)

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piano exam on friday......just the thought of how close it is makes my heart pump......

sight reading is ALWAYS a son of a bitch.....>____<

and sight SINGING......argh.....

my worst fear is that i might 斷片 in the middle of the performance.....you kno what i mean?

彈彈下突然間個腦空白一片. GOD.

sometimes it happens....

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bless meeee

中秋節快樂.

快樂指數原來真係同年齡成反比........

對節日已經無曬感覺......

小時候很期待中秋節.....一堆朋友一起出去玩......會好期待.....

長大了....連生日/新年都不覺得期待........

還好聖誕節還是有期待......但期待的不是和朋友去玩....而是那個節日氣氛....

街上冷冷的空氣.....金紅色的燈飾.....一對對的戀人.......令整個城市都充滿浪漫氣息

雖然自己沒有另一半....but the romantic atmosphere are just too enjoyable....

我果然還是追求浪漫的......

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每次自己一個坐地鐵....巴士....小巴....聽著MP3裏的歌.......都會有一種莫名的傷感

感覺好像一直壓抑著的思念快要崩潰一樣

我想當你對一個人的思念到頂點.....又無法訴說的時候, 那思念只能化為淚水吧

發洩完了, 回到現實......思念還是會一點一點累積.......

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有時候在胡思亂想....其實我的過去, 就是我的未來.....所以我的未來應該是很快樂的

現在的我只要努力.....一定能"回到未來"的....哈

im on my way my future! see you soon....

hopefully soon enough be4 you're too far away...or worse...gone....

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!! 嬤嬤這次出院後好像真的好了~ ^_________^

雖然身體還不怎麼樣舒服......但至少生活能和之前一樣了......thank god!

妳不能有事啊~ you have to live long enough to see my future! you won't be disappointed!!

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jia you ah!!

3G!!

我手機終於都申請了無線上網了.....gosh my iPhone is finally COMPLETE.

不過電去得好快......

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時間過得真快..............

出院又入院...=(

嬤嬤上星期3終於都出院了~ 但係星期日又發燒入院了.....

朋友們幫我為嬤嬤祈禱啊....><

8月過得好似特別漫長.........無乜開心野發生甘........

呢排勤讀聖經......其實都幾 interesting...haa...."終於"都就黎睇完創世記...哈哈.....

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前幾日係小巴度聽mp3.......聽到某幾首歌.....突然間覺得有熱淚盈眶ge感覺........

無法形容的感覺......好似發作場夢甘....

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我ge生命裡面so far已經有好多"後悔's"......可吾可以吾好再增加...

但我明白問題其實都係係自己身上....

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我要FOCUSSSSS!!!!!!!!!

Merry Christmas Mr. Lawrence - FYI

I FINALLY FOUND THIS SONG!!!

第一次係街聽到已經被深深吸引.....之後只係記得拒ge background loop......之前問過好多人都無人識.....今日哼比joyce聽拒竟然即刻知咩歌.......太感動了................TwT

MERRY CHRISTMAS MR. LAWRENCE - FYI  (album: "This is the one")

by Utada Hikaru

I don't know why its background loop sounds SOOO FAMILIAR to me....i was gussing that its from some very famous piece of music...im not sure... does it sound familiar to you??

and it seems to have the power to "rewind" my memories......i dont know how to describe this feeling but its totally pulling me in....

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I just realized how well Utada could sing.....maybe im just tooo INTO this song lol.

ima check out her other songs from this album later....hehe